When I first started writing a blog back in November 2004 (god have I really been blogging for three years?) it was like a bug, everything I saw that was of even the slightest interest made me want to blog it.
I’d compose blog posts in my head if I was out and try my best to remember them when I got back to a computer – I’ve written blog posts on my crappy little mobile phone and even found scraps of paper to jot down ideas.
This all came from a desire to share my opinion, however worthless or pointless it might of been, regardless of whether anyone is actually reading it or not.
That bug seems to have gone – for a while blogging has been more like a chore – sort of like having this space I need to fill every day and thanks to boring grown up things – I haven’t had time to do it.
A lack of time then led to a loss of interest and now I only post when I can scrape a few spare minutes – which 1) doesn’t lead to a paticularly interesting blog and 2) isn’t particually fullfilling in terms of developing my writing style, getting stuff of my chest and generally just … doing something with my thoughts.
So the questions I’m asking myself are, and this comes after two weeks of no posts:
“do I let upyourego.com lay fallow and only update when I can be arsed”
“should I just shut down the blog and be done with it – use jaiku, pownce and twitter to express an opinion”
“should I try my best to keep it going, instead of keeping opinions to myself just get on with a quick post”
The reason I’m asking these questions is that I still have ideas for posts – all the time – I just don’t seem to be able to muster the desire to take it from an idea in my head to actual text on the page.
I know it doesn’t take long to write a quick page but I just don’t seem to have been able to get beyond writing a headline.
I’ve opened the WordPress control panel countless times in the last two weeks, I’ve even half written posts but don’t seem to have been able to take any of them to a conclusion – if I had there would have been at least two posts a day for the last two weeks and no need for this piece of self flagulating bollocks.
Oh and the first episode of my new, new music show (focusing on the Jersey music scene) goes out on Friday 7 December (18:00-19:00) on 88.8fm in Jersey or bbc.co.uk/jersey if you live outside the island.